Woke up at 6:35am with a wicked disgusting fever.
I was so hot, but then I would feel cold if I went out of the blanket.
And my head was throbbing.
And I couldn't even cough or blow my nose anymore,
because there was stuff there but I couldn't
get enough power in my cough or of blowing my nose
to get anything but a little bit of mucus out.
And I just felt...weak.
I couldn't think, and my stomach was hurting and I couldn't take deep breaths...
and I just kept getting these pains in my chest and in my back,
and my ribs and my shoulders...
not at the same time, just ike a dot of pain like someone was poking me really hard in the shoulder.
With the chest/back/ribs I kind of think it felt like a mild stabbing.
And I was so tired, but I couldn't sleep.
I had the lights off but the TV I play video games on (ex: the only TV in my room) on for light.
I listening to 'I woke up near the sea' - lydia and whispered the words along
because there just wasn't anything else I could do.
I just felt sick.
And my stomach hurt, like I was hungry.
But it kept coming and going and I was just in this daze.
I took a bath at like 7:30,
it didn't help.
The water felt cold, but I knew it was atleast warm.
I slept for a while.
I don't know how long.
Sometime after 8.
I woke up when I heard sounds in the living room,
and just lay in my bed.
Hurting and wishing my mom would come in and cuddle me.
But I didn't want to wake her up.

And when she was awake, she didn't even think anything of my being sick
and I think she just thought it was like normal.
But it's not.
Because I'm feeling like that again.
My eyes hurt like I should do that sick crying, but I don't have any tears.
I feel bad, because I told Dollface last night I'd have posts waiting for her.
I only have half, because I did it last night.
I can barely think now to even try doing J&A's.

My back hurts.
My hands are cold.
My body is cold, but my face is warm and
I feel like I'm boiling but I feel like I'm freezing,
and it's just so confusing.
I thought today I would be better.
This sucks, because I didn't get to use the camera at all, really.

Oh, and last night before bed I was messing with my camera and I accidently
stepped on the dog a little.
He bit me.
It hurts, and it looks kind of gross.

I can't really cough or blow my nose, again.
When I do cough the bit that I can,
it shakes my whole body.
When I blow my nose, it's only like half.
I sneezed just a bit earlier before I wrote this,
and it felt like my nose was being ripped off my face, only
less.

I'm going to take a shower.
Maybe the hot water and the steam will help,
it usually does when I feel like shit.