Amy has this really, like...
I don't know.
She just has this post in her blog right now about things.
And I literally had to stop reading,
and just...turn my entire self away from the computer.
Because I just couldn't.
I couldn't read it, it was too hard.
And I was crying, and crying and crying...
and I just closed the page.
I just closed it.
I just, wiped my tears off and took deep breaths and just...
just tried not to think about it.
I just shoved it away, put on some Beach House and wrote a -crappy- post for the role play.
I made myself read the rest though, just before I wrote this.
I read the rest, and just...let it hurt.
There's nothing I can do to fight it, I'm going to hurt no matter what.
I might as well just..embrace it.

Which is probably what I'll be doing quite soon,
because I plan to just get into comfy pajamas...
update the songs on the MP3 to include some good
ones that I think will work well...
and then play some mario for a bit, read a book maybe...
Then go to bed sometime in an hour, and just...yeah.
Go to bed. And sleep.
Get rid of this headache that's come on so strongly.