Really tempted to just apply to lookbook.
Just to get it over with, see what happens.
I may be doing all this work and not even get to get in there
Or, I may be doing all this work and it's actually easier then I ever thought.
There would always be asking for an invitation somewhere,
but that is an absolute last resort.

Did some rping with Dollface.
It felt good to get back to normal.
I was happy today.
Got a lot of awesome clothes,
downloaded some music, helped with the laundry,
walked the dog.

It was raining.
Not heavily, but not light enough to be misty.
It was that perfect rain that feels nice on your skin and
it was a regular spring temperature, too.
I was wearing flipflops when I went outside all day until the evening,
and I didn't put any sweater or such thing over top of my
tops, and I wasn't uncomfortable.
Lovely.
<3

Thinking about checking gaia posts, writing up a reply for amy and then heading to bed.
Today was such an awesome day.

I just noticed tomorrow is friday.
Getting money for Marianas Trench tix,
and maybe some for some clothes or at least a cute pair of shoes.

Going to playdome on saturday with Dayton and Janet, maybe.
It'll be fun, rides and things like that.
I'm excited for that, too.

Everyday I hurt less and less and things get easier.
And I've just been getting a whole lot of luck.
Like with these clothes, I was just thinking yesterday
that I wanted a vest. And I've been wishing on 11;11 that
I'd find a way to get my life back into order,
among other things. And it's happening.

Sometimes I wonder if everything I know as logical is wrong, and
maybe there is some sort of god out there,
and I'm not wishing, I'm praying.
It's a nice thought, sort of. Comforting in an odd way. I don't think I'm anywhere close
to accepting such a thought, but it's just been something
floating around inside my head.

But then I smile to myself, because I know that
a large part of this all has to do with myself, more then
anything else.
It was only a matter of time.
The harder you fall, the higher you rise when you get up.