Today: detailed and sincere version.

I cleaned my room today.
Just now, actually.
Wearing my favourite pair of blue shorts from the summer and my teal sweater.
I did my hair up in a bun, but it was better then any bun I've ever seen on myself.
My hair still looked soft, and the colours shone. There was a bit of a braid done on some of the front part, and I just pulled it around and tucked the end up into the mass of hair I twirled into a slightly poofy updo/bun/thing.
I set one pin in to make it a bit less puffy on the side without the braid, and I tucked another in on the side with the braid because the one part kept getting in my eye.

Tonight was a night of relaxation and regrouping.
I thought a lot, and I didn't mind it.
I've taken a long break from being trapped away in my own little tower,
it's nice to be let down but I'm missing the girl I am when I'm
my solitary self. Yet, I love the girl I could be when I'm
out galavanting across the province.

One thing I can agree on wholeheartedly though, is that
I cannot wait for summer.
I can't wait for dresses without leggings.
Sun, sun, sun and more sun.
Unbearable warmth.
Swimming.
Playland and the beach.
Sitting in the bath tub,
wearing flip flops.
Staying out late, because the sun doesn't set until as late as almost 11 on some days.

Another thing I can agree on is that I am completely excited about seeing fall out boy for the second time and Cobra Starship for the third.
Concerts are the best.
I can't wait to let go completely of the world I'm in everyday and get caught up
in something more. Something...bigger.

When I clean my room, I come out with lots of bits and pieces.
I found like 10 hair ties, all of which are strewn around on various objects so I'll be able to find them later. I found the long orange ribbon from the one skirt gowri let me have from her house,
and I tied it up into my hair like a headband.
I found my camppotlatch application, still waiting to be filled out.
There was the hot water bottle I'd forgotten about since I'm no longer feeling ill,
the '****' live DVD, a brush, two pairs of nail clippers, my favourite scarf.

But there was also the tin that had had candy canes in it.
The one I got from Amy as part of my christmas present.
I didn't know what to put in it,
and then my eyes fell onto the letter she'd written.
I tugged it off the wall, and just sat down on my bed for a second.
I read it through, smiling and some parts..frowning at others.
Tracing the creases with my fingers when I was done and thinking of how much I miss her and how many days it's been.
I thought about her life, and how it might've been for her when she packaged up her love and sent it away with a hope it'd reach us. I thought about the gifts we recieved, and how they had lived in another place I might not ever see. I thought about how they saw another sky, another house, other people, other memories. And I wished that I could see those things, even if it were only through the eyes of another. I thought about all the things we haven't been able to see, show and communicate to one another through all this time. I wonder if she's changed. I wonder if I've changed. I wonder most of all, how it'll be when she's returned.
I wonder if that moment will be soon.

The other day I went to Tany's.
Yesterday, I suppose it was.
No one was home.
I'm supposing no one was home today, since I haven't heard from her.
She hasn't even written in her blog.
But, she might be home.
Just keeping her distance as I foolishly stated that was what I wanted.
I'm still angry.
But I don't know anymore what I want to do about that.

Earlier tonight Chris, Tyler and Jaylin were out on the porch.
Me and Chris lighting off bottle rockets and other things like that,
lighting up the night sky and making the neighbours jump.
We did it on monday too, only in the day.
It's more beautiful when the fire is against the inky evening sky.

Today we drove around.
I almost got a tatto.
Did I mention?
Mom said it was okay if I got one.
A small one.
That I can't ever let my father see.
Me and Jenn are going to get something slightly similar.
I'll post pictures when it's done so you can see.
I did tell about their friend Carson who does tattos, right?
Because I think I have.
I'm worried it's going to hurt,
but I think more I'm going to like it.

I'm going to do some school work.
Finish off unit one.
Then tomorrow sometime do my science experiment.
Play my guitar.
Work on getting a math tutor.

I forgot to mention that the other day I applied to a literate+ forum.
They accepted me, and I feel almost unworthy.
I haven't started any role plays there, yet.
But I've posted an add and I've posted an about me,
so hopefully soon.
They aren't very active, to really.

You could look at the forum, if you wanted.
Sine Qua Non.

I'll be putting some songs on the MP3 after it's charged.
Maybe I'll put up a playlist or some songs or something.