Let's just start over.

It is still all snowy.

Woke up, feeling okay.
But kind of depressed about how I'm going
to have to phone Tany.
It's worse, because I know exactly what
she's doing to me, because I've seen her do it
a dozen times or more to others.
But they didn't care as much as I do,
so it isn't fair.
Yet it is her choice to decide,
and I won't be some crazy ex bestfriend if she
really has decided things should be that way.

It's just stupid, because she doesn't even know.
If she had seen how bad Jenn felt, she would know
she wasn't lying like I know.
I know she wouldn't lie to me again,
because she read my blog that time I was pissed at her
and she knows.

Speaking of that.
She read my blog before and knows
also about how I get so depressed.
It's going to be so much worse when they aren't here,
and I just wish I could go with them.
I want things to be different and they won't be.

Surprisngly, I'm not really sad about these things anymore.
I'm just trying to live through it. Not really get over it,
but get through.
If this is the way my life is meant to go, then so be it.
I'll accept it and just try to make things better.


So it's another night in my bed'
Cause I can't sleep
And oh, it wears on your shoulders
Just please don't ever leave
Me here, don't ever leave
Don't you leave

Start out like a sailor
And bring back all you need
So everyone else can
Try and get some sleep...

- ' I Woke Up Near The Sea' - Lydia.
Been playing this a lot.
And same with 'I'll meet you there' - Owl City,
and 'Holy Dances' - Beach House.
+ 'Coastal Cities' - The Secret Handshake.
And some other Lydia tracks too.
Should check them out.
I'll be making another playlist today, so.
Yeah.

Also, did I mention I've now got the dry cough that everyone else has along with a whole lot of snot? It's annoying as fuck.

OH. And the camera charger doesn't work for anything but a few minutes, that's why it wasn't charging. We'll have to take it back.