I feel awful.
I said something I shouldn't have,
and something I didn't really mean.
I just...frustrated.
Sick of how things are.
The rut I've fallen into,
everything of the old
seems to be pushing me from changing.

Things like 'You always..' or 'You do..'
Not just from one person, but
from everyone.
I'm predictable, over the worst things.

It's not right to assume,
that's something I know first hand.
But I assumed and used
that assumption accusingly,
it wasn't fair of me.
I feel terrible for it and I'm sorry, Amy.


I don't know what's going on with me, honestly.
Everything is a jumble.
I said such awful things and promptly signed out
of msn and left the room, going
to join my parents where they waited.
Having wanted to hang out with me.

My life is not about family togetherness.
And really, I thought for a long time about
what my life IS about, and couldn't think
of one single thing.