Everytime I come on, no one is on.
Which kind of sucks but whatever.
Waiting for Jenn to make some breakfast.
I'll probably end up helping, not that I mind.

My arms hurt from holding Nick
and walking around so he wouldn't cry.
He likes me, I can always make him
smile and he always stares at me.

Played alot with Tyler.
Crazy 8's with this card set
he got for his birthday from
Chris's parents.
And Operation,
which he got for his b-day from
his friend Joshua.
We also have thumb wars and play
I spy and rock paper scissors.
Since I'm nicer to him he listens to
me better and is happier to have
someone paying attention to him.

I really want to be at home,
despite all the goodness I'm doing here.
I don't mind helping out or anything.
I just miss my room.
Being able to do what I want.
And showers.
I never shower here, it's weird for me.
You know about my aversion to bathrooms.

I'd have been home yesterday,
but my Dad was an ass and didn't
come pick me up.
So Jenn's friend Pat is going
to drive me later.
Or Jenn will, since they're getting a van today.

Ever since Grandma died
(bleh, it feels awful to say that)
I feel angry all the time.
Everything I usually feel irritated about
x10.
I just want to like, scream.
I dunno.

Thinking about not volunteering this year and waiting.
I haven't even been there in years,
so what would be the point?
I don't even think I could live up to the expectations
even if they did pick me.
But why would they, I'm a mess.

Sorry for worrying you guys.
I just haven't been near the computer much, so.
Yeah.