At Jenn's house chilling out.
Bored.

Tyler got a bunch of his teeth out. He looks funny like..a bumpkin.
J.J. has been so very annoying. I guess she missed me.
Nick has been cute and I cuddled him for like ever.
He's cozy.

I just..I dunno. My mom just acted like a real bitch and I couldn't take it.
I was walking to G's from my house and just..fighting tears the whole way.
My throat was so tight I could barely talk and barely breathe.
Even the new music I got the other day didn't do much to help.
Anyway. Um.
I dunno.
Feeling better. Just...ya know. Needed some time to be somewhere were I could just...be.
And not worry and just...have normal time.

Probably will come home tomorrow.
There's things that need doing back at the homestead (rofl. Homestead)
so I need to get back there.

1.) Get computer cord.
2.) Finish enrollment process for school.
3.) Shop 'till we drop.

Lol. It's interesting where my priorities drop.
Umm...hmm.

Tired as hell. Got up at 7 for like the second time in a week.
Almost fell asleep at like five, rofl.
Jenn had a bit of a nap.
She's funny when she sleeps.

Talked to Tany on the phone earlier.
Didn't have much to talk about, just...the usual.
Trying to download audition, but it keeps being retarded, so.

It's getting colder and colder each day, and the sun rises earlier and earlier and lowers earlier and earlier.
I can't believe that summer is over and soon the light will be gone at 3pm and it'll be snowy.
I reaaalllyyy need a coat.
But per usual it'll be my responsibility considering mom can only do a half ass job.
I need new shoes too.
My vans lasted the summer but now they are just barely hanging on.
My left one has a rip down the entire side.
It won't be long until I have to start wearing my converses or worse, the cheap shoes I got from payless last x-mas.

Time seems to be passing amazingly fast.
It's mind boggling.
Usually summer drags on by.
This year it was like a flash.
Only a second in the long timeline of my life.
I still feel like I'm waiting. But now it's more like...I'm waiting but there's no time to wait with anymore.
It's just all ticking away and my life is being wasted.

Thought alot the other day about all the things I don't say.
Just little things, like how I'm really feeling or why I don't want to wear this or that shirt.
I'm going to start doing it less.
Part of that whole honesty thing.
I just...am sick of keeping secrets and lies and anything like that.
I'm not really guilty, it's just more that I want to make sure that I'm...known.
That I don't end up with a problem like; "No one knows who I am now."
You know?
I find that I've changed so much in such a short time.
It's almost scary. And sometimes people say things like..about what I like or how I act and...
I'm just like "Huh. That's not like me at all."

Baby is fussing alittle bit. I can hear him in the next room,
but only barely over my typing.
Hmmm......
I should tell Jenn.
Man, Nick sure is a fussy little bugger.