Sometimes it just feels better to give in.

I suppose I'm going to have to cut most everything I enjoy out of my life.
I have to be 75% done music and guitar by the end of may.
I have my work cut out for me, certainly.

I feel like an idiot for slacking off the rest of the year.
But. I can do it, I know.
I'll just have to get up early everymorning and hit the books hard all day.

A part of me wants to cry right now.
I feel very much like my life is just steadily crumbling away,
and has been doing so for a while.
I'll make it through, though.
And rebuild. And be happy, eventually.

One line from a song springs to mind right now:

"I still believe that change can happen..though, it's hard and it happens slowly."

I feel a bit better listening to Paper Route, too.
It's kind of calming.