REMINDER: Tany. Post your goddamn comments.

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Mom just came in, right when I was about to be all witty and interesting.

Ahh well.

I'm sure those thoughts will get back to me.

Anyway.

She wanted me to watch a movie with her.

But...it's hard.

Because she acts so strange.

Sometimes I'd rather just hole up in my own little world and then sleep.

Like I was going to.

I was going to say 'As If I Lived Alone' but...it isn't like that.

Because if it was, I'd be sitting...in my bathroom.

In the bathtub.

With pillows an a homemade ice coffee.

Shorts and a bra on.

With my computer, writing away on here.

Or, standing on the porch, watching the stars.

Or dancing in my kitchen with the music blaring.

Living alone, I'd need all of those distractions to fill the time.

Got bored. I drew a picture for Tany.

It's...her. IDK. I was going to draw myself another poster type deal,

but...

I didn't know what to draw. And I just kind of made a snap decision to draw her a picture.

Because I knew she would appreciate it.

Around here, good deeds are...ignored.

Or given a generic thank-you.

I've noticed lately, that thank you is so generic.

So very..boring and unfeeling.

I'll make my acknowledgement of other people's acts have a better voice.

Expect lengthy accounts of how much I like or dislike or am worthy or un worthy of whatever services some one does for me.

It'll be very flambouyant.

I can't wait.

Ah. Slightly horrible day.

I walked Gowri down to the end of the street.

It was quiet, as usual.

I remember I just started laughing.

Tany must've thought I was crazy, aha.

But...I was just..happy. I looked at the sun, so bright and so...large looking.

The sky looked flat earlier, but while we were walking it popped more.

The sun made it sparkle.

I was just happy, so I laughed.

I dont express myself enough.

I know, I know.

You'll all thinking I'm crazy, because...I probably do express myself quite alot.

but..no.

Not enough.

Listening to 'Men In Black'. The cover that FTSK did?

It's hilarious.

"All right check it.,

Slow down son!

You worried about the wrong thing piiiiimp!"

ROFL.

"What up young son buckerrr??!?!"

Aha. I like it. Makes me feel...bouncy.

As was intended, I suppose.

"Bounce with me. Just bounce with me."

(:

Had some fun moments today, doing absolutely nothing.

Gowri got some brit-brit and justy-justy news.

I've speculated that they are probably back together, but keeping it a secret.

So dont tell anyone I've uncovered the secret.

;D

Finished this book I bought.

'Everything You Want' by Barbara Shoup.

This is what the goose looks like in my mind now, rofl.

Book wasn't that great. Some good points. I'll re-read it and figure them out later.
Mostly, I like how it ended.
How Gabe Parker just kissed Emma.
My favourite line was when she was talking about colouring the world.
And the line about every story being a whole entire life of it's own.
And um... every moment being a story, in which you are either a minor or major character.
And with that last one, how you could somehow end up being a major character in some random person's day, just because they saw you.

That thought makes me smile.
Like, one day I'll just be walking downtown when I'm a succesful Marine Biologist or Lawyer or WHATEVER, and....some guy will just see me. And stop. Like in the movies. Love at first site.
An imprint. XD
I dunno. Right now, I'm sore and I need new things to listen to...and my arms are sore from typing while laying on my stomach but...
I'm happy. And I'm...hopefull. Like..anything I want could happen. All I have to do is believe.

So anyway.
The bad part of my day.
When I was walking the dog after Gowri was probably already home...
I was walking down Mousey's street.
Had the headphones up, really loudly. Per usual.
Couldn't hear a thing. Some guy was walking towards me, just making his way down the street. Whatever.
And then..all of a sudden, this van drives by. And...

To BE CONTINUED . . .

ROFL. J/k. I wouldn't do that to you. =/
Anyway.
A bunch of loser guys THREW A FUCKING EGG AT ME.
Couldn't throw worth shit though. They missed, by a mile.
Lucky they did too, considering it would've hit me in the hair, and I would NOT have been happy.

Anyway. So on I go. Slightly miffed, but deciding not to let it bother me...I keep walking. Fix my clothes after doing a check to make sure the egg didn't hit me, and just keep going. Head held high. Absolute murder in my eyes for anyone who dared say a word. I did my sassy mall walk. All..sexified and bossy and IMPORTANT. And everything was fine. I didn't...freak out, amazingly. Sure, I was pissed. But..whatever. Could've been worse, right? They could've gotten me! Anyway. I turn onto my street. And right when I'm getting near my yard, they drive by AGAIN. And throw ANOTHER egg.

They missed, again. And..again, I think. Amazingly enough. They drove away laughing hysterically and rolling the window up. I was too mortified to even catch the license plate number. I just kind of stopped, and stood there. And then...I just..snapped.
'Why would some one do that to me? What did I ever do to them?'
And I just kind of sniffled and whimpered as I made my way up the driveway.
Dog didn't notice a damn thing, the silly loveable mutt.

I would've cried. But..I didn't. I sat and sulked a moment.
Mom was..well. How mom is when no ones around, and...and I didn't care.
I just said "Can't throw worth shit." got up, and walked into the kitchen to make a snack.

Crazy, right? I dunno. I feel..different.
I feel..I feel like how I feel when I'm dressed in one of my best outfits.
I feel like..someone should come up to me like..RIGHT NOW and tell me I'm amazing and they want to take me out someplace.

God. I'm pathetic.
But it's hard, okay. Waiting.
I'm impatient. I want true love. I want it now.
j/k.
I can wait.
I'm just anxious, I guess.

Alright, so...I'm going to sit up and get some new music and then go to bed. Doctor's appointment tomorrow. So..I need to sleep. And..I need something new to listen to while I do so.

Good Morning.