I don't care what you think - as long as it's about me. (;

So....so..I dunno.
I don't know how I'm feeling just now.
I don't know..if I was telling the truth when I said I didn't care to dollface.

I just...I strive to be away from that quiet girl.
That one that...sits and mulls over things.
The one that holds grudges and doesn't say things.
Holds them in, and just...stews.
I don't want to be her. I dont...I don'tlike to be...

I don't like to have unoccupied time.
I don't like to think about certain things, and so...
there's just this way that I deal.

I'm loud, and crazy and...I LIKE being like that.
It's who I am, and it's...it's not like I'm rude.
Because, I'm not. Not really.
I'm still courteous and respectful and...
sure, I bash people's opinions, but...c'mon.
We talked about music, waffles, and...nonsense.
It's not like I said "Oh, you believe in -inster important moral view here-? Well that's totally -insert long stretch of insults and shut downs here-"

I just..don't get it.
I feel like I was judged. And I feel like... that isn't fair.
Because I didn't judge anyone, and I kept my mind open. I didn't...say things that were hurtful, or things that implied hurtful things. I was kidding around. And...there's things I'd like to say, but it'd be out of anger. And...it'd be that I was assuming things and judging and...I'm not going to do that. So...I'm just going to chill. And I'm also going to change the song off of Snow Patrol, because it's making me feel worse.