In general, I'm sick of people.
I want to be grumpy.
The way I'm making myself
feel right now feels like a lie.
I hate how so many songs I love are filled with love.
Break ups, longing, passion.
All of it. In there.
In them all.
It's fucking lame.
I have to search so hard to find a song that isn't.
And like, Everything feels fake today.
The lightbulb in my room is starting to dim,
so the light feels unreal.
The yard is covered with leaves that are yellow.
It makes home not feel like home.
Today feels like a normal day.
I want to be alone.
Just to chill.
Not talk to all these annoying people.
Every incompetence is grating on my nerves.
Like the touch of velvet does.
Like coming in from the cold does.
Like when you go out in the snow,
and your gloves get wet.
Today is the sort of day, where
everything seems to be in my way.
I'm this close.
Honestly, to just freaking out.
I hate this.
This isn't me.
And at the same time,
in the mood I'm in,
I wonder who I even am anymore.
Who I even know.
Because really, it feels like one of my closest friends..isn't that exact thing.
And I can't be sure whether or not that's my fault.
I feel hazy and full of steam.
I don't feel like going to my aunt's for all the halloween things.
I'm sick of this, everything.
Jumpy. Irritable.
I feel like everywhere I step is someone else's
place. Like I have nowhere to stand and be myself.
Like I'm just like everyone else, and nothing
special. Like everything I've worked
so hard for isn't mine.
Sick of being a people pleaser.
Sick of fall.
And yet, I can't change anything.
Don't you just hate when you think you're going to have a good day,
and then by the looks of it,
it's just a total fail?
Friday, October 31, 2008
New+Old/Fresh.
An Ocean Between - This Providence.
Postcards From Italy - Beirut.
Daysleeper - Dear and the Headlights.
Shiver - Motion City Soundtrack.
You Do, You Don't - The Friday Night Boys.
Insomnia - Wintersleep.
Just Stay - Kevin Devine.
This Is How We Kiss - Throw Me The Statue.
I'll Never Know - The Colour Fred.
Baby We're Invincible - A Rocket To The Moon.
Falling back on things I left for a bit.
Slipping in some newbz.
Gooood times.
Postcards From Italy - Beirut.
Daysleeper - Dear and the Headlights.
Shiver - Motion City Soundtrack.
You Do, You Don't - The Friday Night Boys.
Insomnia - Wintersleep.
Just Stay - Kevin Devine.
This Is How We Kiss - Throw Me The Statue.
I'll Never Know - The Colour Fred.
Baby We're Invincible - A Rocket To The Moon.
Falling back on things I left for a bit.
Slipping in some newbz.
Gooood times.
I'll Be Me Around You.
It's 10.
I shall shower, then eat.
My stomach feels like
it wants to throw it's
self up. And I think,
it's mostly because I'm hungry.
We'll see.
Maybe I caught that stomach shit tany
had that my mom got.
Either way, school stuff today.
I want to finish unit one in english.
Do the next part in science.
Maybe finish my math.
Tune my guitar.
AND today my room needs to be clean.
For seriousness.
It's a disaster.
Today, shall be a good day.
I shall shower, then eat.
My stomach feels like
it wants to throw it's
self up. And I think,
it's mostly because I'm hungry.
We'll see.
Maybe I caught that stomach shit tany
had that my mom got.
Either way, school stuff today.
I want to finish unit one in english.
Do the next part in science.
Maybe finish my math.
Tune my guitar.
AND today my room needs to be clean.
For seriousness.
It's a disaster.
Today, shall be a good day.
Good morning, losers.
I think I woke up at 8am.
I'm not entirely sure,
but it feels like it had been
that fuzzy piece of morning
where everyone else is
always entirely
too sharp and awake for
my tastes.
It's 9 now, and I'm tired.
Thinking of waking up
Tany, just so she can share my early waking
pains. I tried to go back
to bed, okay. It didn't work.
I AM COLD, AND IT SUCKS.
Fucking fall.
KK, I'm done complaining.
Nice blog post to follow.
I think I woke up at 8am.
I'm not entirely sure,
but it feels like it had been
that fuzzy piece of morning
where everyone else is
always entirely
too sharp and awake for
my tastes.
It's 9 now, and I'm tired.
Thinking of waking up
Tany, just so she can share my early waking
pains. I tried to go back
to bed, okay. It didn't work.
I AM COLD, AND IT SUCKS.
Fucking fall.
KK, I'm done complaining.
Nice blog post to follow.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
LOL, RIGHT?
It was some seaside town.Tany was there.Lots of old people.There was this store,and we were therefor like, vacation.But it was like, I'd beenthere before when I was a kid.
And then...it was near a forest.And we were in like, the town square sort of thing.Like, there was stores.And me and tany go into this one store.And like, no one was there.You just like, take what you want and leave the money according to age.It was weird.But we like got this candyand only paid 10 cents andthis old man was like thereand saw us do it.And it was weird at this part, like I was telling somone.Because I could hear my voice like narrating itto someone.
And then like, I was in the forest part.And there was this like,house. I didn't see the outside,or I don't remember it.It was like, I saw the inside.It was cluttered, and kind of like a boat.And shaped like a cylinder.Forsure not a normal house.okay, so then there was this oldLady. Who was like, first nations.And I kept getting this feelinglike she was my grandma or someone like that.Who was important to me,and the reason I went there.And like, tany was gone IDK where.But i wasn't worrying.And then like, me and the lady were talkingabout some power I had.And like, TV was on.And fall out boy was talking, and wetalked about them.And there was something I could change..it was weird.And then like, Jacob comes in.LOL, RIGHT?Anyway.So Jacob comes in.And like, is my tour guide of the placewhere we were. Because I'd been there,but I was there when I was like five.And we talked about that.And were like walking in this forest.Then we ended up in this like, living room with like these weird couches.and Some girl was there.I kind of get the feeling she was like, leah.But she wasn't there until later.And the living room thing was a lot likethat bistro/pub place I went with my uncle.And so then, me and Jacob had like talked about stuff on the way IDK. And then, we were like sitting there.And I liked him, and I think he liked mebecause there was something he did, but I can't remember.Something to do with saving, I think.SO anyway, we're like sitting on thislike couch. And I say something that's like'I know you like me, and i like you'sort of thing, but not like that.Like, it was a question sort of,but I don't remember. And he was like "You say that without even knowing how i feel."And I was like "Well how to you feel?"And then we were like, making out.And like, there was a TV and it was on.And there was this time when we like, stopped.I watched the TV, and I could see he was looking at me,and it was funny.I think we were watching the TV for a reason,for like updates on something that happenedbut IDK, i think it was infomercials.And then we were kissing more.And my mom walks in, and we just like stop right away, and like slide apart like "We weren't doing anything."I think I was older then I am now.Anyway.And like, that girl was there.So we were just like watch TV.And we kissed a bit sometimes, me and Jake.Even though what's her name was still there.but mostly we just talked.And then on TV some book thing came.And I was like "I read a book by that author."And like, had it somehow.It was weird, like I could tell the future or something,I think that was like that power thing I had.And like, that other girl thought it was weird.And I was just like "You're in it too."What's her name then looked at Jake, but he was too busywatching TV to notice.And then I was about to be like nodding as in like 'yeah, him too.'But then I woke up.
I copy/pasted from notepad, because as soon
as I woke up I quickly wrote it down.
That's why it's not prettily formated
like all the rest of my posts.
(:
And then...it was near a forest.And we were in like, the town square sort of thing.Like, there was stores.And me and tany go into this one store.And like, no one was there.You just like, take what you want and leave the money according to age.It was weird.But we like got this candyand only paid 10 cents andthis old man was like thereand saw us do it.And it was weird at this part, like I was telling somone.Because I could hear my voice like narrating itto someone.
And then like, I was in the forest part.And there was this like,house. I didn't see the outside,or I don't remember it.It was like, I saw the inside.It was cluttered, and kind of like a boat.And shaped like a cylinder.Forsure not a normal house.okay, so then there was this oldLady. Who was like, first nations.And I kept getting this feelinglike she was my grandma or someone like that.Who was important to me,and the reason I went there.And like, tany was gone IDK where.But i wasn't worrying.And then like, me and the lady were talkingabout some power I had.And like, TV was on.And fall out boy was talking, and wetalked about them.And there was something I could change..it was weird.And then like, Jacob comes in.LOL, RIGHT?Anyway.So Jacob comes in.And like, is my tour guide of the placewhere we were. Because I'd been there,but I was there when I was like five.And we talked about that.And were like walking in this forest.Then we ended up in this like, living room with like these weird couches.and Some girl was there.I kind of get the feeling she was like, leah.But she wasn't there until later.And the living room thing was a lot likethat bistro/pub place I went with my uncle.And so then, me and Jacob had like talked about stuff on the way IDK. And then, we were like sitting there.And I liked him, and I think he liked mebecause there was something he did, but I can't remember.Something to do with saving, I think.SO anyway, we're like sitting on thislike couch. And I say something that's like'I know you like me, and i like you'sort of thing, but not like that.Like, it was a question sort of,but I don't remember. And he was like "You say that without even knowing how i feel."And I was like "Well how to you feel?"And then we were like, making out.And like, there was a TV and it was on.And there was this time when we like, stopped.I watched the TV, and I could see he was looking at me,and it was funny.I think we were watching the TV for a reason,for like updates on something that happenedbut IDK, i think it was infomercials.And then we were kissing more.And my mom walks in, and we just like stop right away, and like slide apart like "We weren't doing anything."I think I was older then I am now.Anyway.And like, that girl was there.So we were just like watch TV.And we kissed a bit sometimes, me and Jake.Even though what's her name was still there.but mostly we just talked.And then on TV some book thing came.And I was like "I read a book by that author."And like, had it somehow.It was weird, like I could tell the future or something,I think that was like that power thing I had.And like, that other girl thought it was weird.And I was just like "You're in it too."What's her name then looked at Jake, but he was too busywatching TV to notice.And then I was about to be like nodding as in like 'yeah, him too.'But then I woke up.
I copy/pasted from notepad, because as soon
as I woke up I quickly wrote it down.
That's why it's not prettily formated
like all the rest of my posts.
(:
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Today will not be a good day.
I can tell already, by the way I was kept
up for a lot of the night, by the way the song
I keep wanting to play over
and over and over's talks about
'Some nights the blood from real cuts feels
real nice when it's really mine..'
And how everyone else is teetering on an edge.
I'm sick of this.
I've gotten so used to how things are in this house.
And then there are those moments, when you can
catch a glimpse into a life not yours,
and you realize.
'This is my life?'
When you return to everything.
Or, perhaps you don't.
Perhaps you smile and say "This is my life."
and go on about your day.
This desperation feels like home.
And more and more and more
I wonder:
Will I be stuck here forever?
Probably my greatest fear.
I could scream forever, until my lungs ache
and it feels like I'm dying. But I can't.
Instead I shall lull along and try.
Even if that is so hard.
Even if I don't quite recognize myself when
it's through.
I can tell already, by the way I was kept
up for a lot of the night, by the way the song
I keep wanting to play over
and over and over's talks about
'Some nights the blood from real cuts feels
real nice when it's really mine..'
And how everyone else is teetering on an edge.
I'm sick of this.
I've gotten so used to how things are in this house.
And then there are those moments, when you can
catch a glimpse into a life not yours,
and you realize.
'This is my life?'
When you return to everything.
Or, perhaps you don't.
Perhaps you smile and say "This is my life."
and go on about your day.
This desperation feels like home.
And more and more and more
I wonder:
Will I be stuck here forever?
Probably my greatest fear.
I could scream forever, until my lungs ache
and it feels like I'm dying. But I can't.
Instead I shall lull along and try.
Even if that is so hard.
Even if I don't quite recognize myself when
it's through.
New/Fresh/5.
'For Real' - Okkervil River.
'The Show' - Lenka.
'Wrong Way To Hide' - There For Tomorrow.
'Falling' - Ben Kweller.
'Paranoia' - Harvey Danger.
'The Show' - Lenka.
'Wrong Way To Hide' - There For Tomorrow.
'Falling' - Ben Kweller.
'Paranoia' - Harvey Danger.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Scraps.
Like little paper scraps
I tear away.
Drop to the floor like snow - wish there was more truth to my words
Pasting and gluing, avant-garde art projects
I can't take credit for.
Be better. Be more.
I shape myself with pieces of hope.
Held together by determination. Sliced apart.
Cut down.
My own work - I don't deserve the credit.
I don't deserve to know myself.
This empty blank expanse, like a fresh notebook page...
leaves me lost. This feeling?
I can't describe it.
Like the ink of a marker slowly running dry,
I've come to a stop.
Wondering.
What. Now.
I tear away.
Drop to the floor like snow - wish there was more truth to my words
Pasting and gluing, avant-garde art projects
I can't take credit for.
Be better. Be more.
I shape myself with pieces of hope.
Held together by determination. Sliced apart.
Cut down.
My own work - I don't deserve the credit.
I don't deserve to know myself.
This empty blank expanse, like a fresh notebook page...
leaves me lost. This feeling?
I can't describe it.
Like the ink of a marker slowly running dry,
I've come to a stop.
Wondering.
What. Now.
I don't understand silence.
Unless it's my own.
And even then, I've no idea.
This whole thing is making me
feel...awful.
I don't understand it.
I have a headache.
I'm ripping backgrounds out of magazines,
drawing on a faceless person of
some sort.
Slapping some lyrics
into a speach bubble.
It loosk cool, but I have no idea
what to do with all these scraps.
Maybe I can string them
together and make myself into
something better.
Hm. Maybe I'll write a poem or something,
I like the sound of this.
Unless it's my own.
And even then, I've no idea.
This whole thing is making me
feel...awful.
I don't understand it.
I have a headache.
I'm ripping backgrounds out of magazines,
drawing on a faceless person of
some sort.
Slapping some lyrics
into a speach bubble.
It loosk cool, but I have no idea
what to do with all these scraps.
Maybe I can string them
together and make myself into
something better.
Hm. Maybe I'll write a poem or something,
I like the sound of this.
I don't know how I feel today.
Misplaced.
Not right, somehow.
Not enough to really..want to discuss it.
I feel kind of bad the way I put it to dollface.
But..I just..she wouldn't get it.
Our lives are too different.
The only person that would get it,
would probably be Jenn.
But we never talk about things like that.
We do, but we don't.
And I'm not going to burden her with my problems,
she has enough to worry about.
Enough people to care about.
I'll be okay.
I'll find my way eventually.
Things are just kind
of blurry right now,
I guess.
I feel alittle lost.
Misplaced.
Not right, somehow.
Not enough to really..want to discuss it.
I feel kind of bad the way I put it to dollface.
But..I just..she wouldn't get it.
Our lives are too different.
The only person that would get it,
would probably be Jenn.
But we never talk about things like that.
We do, but we don't.
And I'm not going to burden her with my problems,
she has enough to worry about.
Enough people to care about.
I'll be okay.
I'll find my way eventually.
Things are just kind
of blurry right now,
I guess.
I feel alittle lost.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Listening to the album 'Come Around' by Sing It Loud.
Me and Tany are looking for a nickname to give Pat Brown.
So far, we have 'Pimple Face Patti'
I don't think it works that well.
Any ideas? Comment it.
Favourite Tracks:
'I've Got A Feeling'
'Come Around'
'Don't Save Me'
'No One Can Touch Us' (ft. Alex Gaskarth)
'Marionettes'
'Over You'.
More then half the cd is gold. The rest is still pretty mind blowing.
Buy it if you don't own it like me and Tan do.
This band should be huge.
They deserve it.
8 years ago.
According to Nicholas Scimeca...
P-trix used to call himself Patrock, and used to be broke as hell.
When all the FOB boys were living together,
he would eat Pate's ketchup with Joe's bread.
My conclusions from the pictures I'm about to post is this:
Joe and Patrock are like bffs currently because they
found that they did indeed both share
a hate for pate and his annoyingly fugly face.
Enjoy.
New/10.
Oh No! - Dear and the Headlights.
When You're Around - Motion City Soundtrack.
The Funeral - Band Of Horses.
Blue Diamonds - The Long Winters.
Why Do You Let Me Stay Here? - She & Him.
The First Day Of My Life - Bright Eyes.
Phone Call - Forever The Sickest Kids.
Mistakes I Haven't Made - A Rocket To The Moon.
Open Your Eyes - Snow Patrol.
Cinnamon - the Long winters.
Those are all songs that aren't actually new.
This order however, is perfect.
And it's the playlist I'll have on loop probably all day.
Especially the first 5 tracks.
They make me happy.
Also:
I love Dollface and Tany. Even if they're confused most of the time.
Confusion is cute. Like I am. Especially today, because I hurtz ahhhhnndd..I needz tha cuddlerz. (;
When You're Around - Motion City Soundtrack.
The Funeral - Band Of Horses.
Blue Diamonds - The Long Winters.
Why Do You Let Me Stay Here? - She & Him.
The First Day Of My Life - Bright Eyes.
Phone Call - Forever The Sickest Kids.
Mistakes I Haven't Made - A Rocket To The Moon.
Open Your Eyes - Snow Patrol.
Cinnamon - the Long winters.
Those are all songs that aren't actually new.
This order however, is perfect.
And it's the playlist I'll have on loop probably all day.
Especially the first 5 tracks.
They make me happy.
Also:
I love Dollface and Tany. Even if they're confused most of the time.
Confusion is cute. Like I am. Especially today, because I hurtz ahhhhnndd..I needz tha cuddlerz. (;
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Tooo lazy to write in junk.
Taken directly from a convo today.
Here. Enjoy.
---
[Alicia] says:
Omg. I'm going to draw this.
Omg. YES.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
OMG WHAT?!
DRAW WHAT?!
[Alicia] says:
THIS.
GABE, BRAS.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT MY BRA LOOKS LIKE
[Alicia] says:
...
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
OR WHAT COLOR IT IS
[Alicia] says:
SO.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
OR IF IT HAS STRAPS
OR IF IT'S STRAPLESS
[Alicia] says:
I DON'T CARE.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
OR IF IT'S BOTH
[Alicia] says:
I'LL DO IT ANYWAY.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
FINE
[Alicia] says:
AND YOU'LL LIKE IT.
SO STFU.
NOW.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
JUST NO GRANNY-ISH BRA
IT HAS TO BE SMEXY....OOOH MAKE IT BLACK
[Alicia] says:
NO, I'M GOING TO DO IT NAO.
NO.
PIINK. LIKE THE PICTARR.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
YOUR GONNA GIVE ME A GRANNY-ISH BRA?
WTF
[Alicia] says:
YES.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
I'M YOUR HUSBAND NOT A GRANDMA
[Alicia] says:
WHAT IF I WANT A GRANPA HUSBAND, HUH.
WHAT THEN.
WHAT THEN?!
OOH,
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
THEN YOU CAN MARRY PATE
[Alicia] says:
WOULD I GET GAB-
PATE
*VOMITS*
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
OH DEAR LORD
I'M LAUGHING SO HARD I'M CRYING
AND CHOKING
NO
GABE IS MINE
[Alicia] says:
NO,
WE SHARE.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
HE LOVES MY BOOBIES
[Alicia] says:
THAT'S IT.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
FINE
[Alicia] says:
MINE ARE BIGGER, DAMN YOU.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
BUT I GET TAYLOR
[Alicia] says:
FUCK.
BUT...
I WANT A DIVORCE.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
AND YOU GET P-TRIX
=0
[Alicia] says:
THAT'S RIGHT.
I SAID IT.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
YOU WOULDN'T....
[Alicia] says:
AND I'M KEEPING THE KID.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
FINE
[Alicia] says:
AND THE TOASTER.
AND THE HOUSE!
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
FINE.
[Alicia] says:
AND THE DOG!
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
BUT I GET GABE AND TAYLOR
SO HAHAHA
[Alicia] says:
OH WELL.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
I'LL BE GAY
WITH THEM
[Alicia] says:
HAVE FUN.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
WE'LL DANCE IN BRAS
[Alicia] says:
I GET GUY RIPLEY.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
FINE
[Alicia] says:
SO HAHAHAHAHAA.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
I GET P-TRIX
[Alicia] says:
*dies*
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
*WALKS AWAY WITH GABE, TAYLOR AND P-TRIX* WAIT.
I'LL TRADE YOU
[Alicia] says:
*haunts from beyond grave*: YOU LIED TO MEE.
*SOBS*
YOU LIED.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
P-TRIX FOR JOE OR ANDY
NO
WAIT
[Alicia] says:
YES.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
FOR JOE
[Alicia] says:
no.
mine.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
FINE I'LL TAKE THE SMEXY TATTOOS
[Alicia] says:
And I get alex suarez.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
I GET ROBERT
[Alicia] says:
Nope.
Fine.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
AND KELLEN
[Alicia] says:
Go ahead.
Both are gay anyway.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
XD
[Alicia] says:
With each other.
But oh,
you likey.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
OH AND THE GUY
FROM OWL CITY
[Alicia] says:
NO.
MINE.
ADAM IS MINE.
BACK OFF.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
NO
[Alicia] says:
YES.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
ADAM IS MINE
[Alicia] says:
YOU TOOK P-TRIX.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
YOU GOT THE HOUSE
[Alicia] says:
I''M LEAVING.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
HEY
I SAID
YOU COULD HAVE P-TRIX
IF I COULD HAVE ANDY
[Alicia] says:
AND THEN TOOK IT BACK.
YOU SAID BEFORE HE'S MINE.
LOOK.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
YEAH BUT THAT WAS BEFORE
YOU TOOK
GOWRI
OKAY. OKAY
HERE
[Alicia] says:
NO.
IT'S TOO LATE.
I'M TAKING THE DISH WASHER.
AND THE DRYER.
AND, AROCKETTOTHEMOON GUY!
NICK.
YEAH.
HAHA.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
I GET GABE, KELLEN, ROBERT, TAYLOR AND ADAM AND YOU CAN HAVE EVERYBODY ELSE.
[Alicia] says:
NO.
NO.
I WON'T SETTLE!
THAT'S IT.
WHERE'S MY LAWYER..
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
OKAY
OKAY
WE CAN SOLVE THIS
LIKE ADULYS
[Alicia] says:
NO WE CAN'T.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
ADULTS*
[Alicia] says:
I STILL LOVE YOU.
*CRIES*
I DON'T WANT A DIVORCE.
CAN'T WE JUST WORK IT OUT?!?!
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
YOU CAN HAVE ADAM IF I CAN HAVE KARL
I WANT KARL <3
WTF
[Alicia] says:
*SOBS* YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT MY NEEDS.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
YOUR THE ONE
WHO WANTED A DIVORCE
[Alicia] says:
I'M THE WOMAN.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
NOT ME
[Alicia] says:
I'M FICKLE.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
PSH
I'M GAY
I'M FICKLER
[Alicia] says:
OKAY, JEEZE. YOU KNOW THAT WHEN WE GOT MARRIED.
IT'S NOT MY FAULT I'M HAVING SO MUCH MOOD SWINGS.
IT'S...
UM...
I DON'T KNOW.
ALL THIS DIVORCE STRESS.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
*GASP*
ARE YOU PREGNANT?
[Alicia] says:
....
Noooo...
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
YOU SAID MOOD SWINGS!
[Alicia] says:
YES, FINE.
AND IT'S GABE'S.
I'M SO SORRY.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
....
....
GABE COME HERE I NEED TO SHOOT YOU IN THE FOOT
AND THEN I NEED YOU TO BEND OVER
[Alicia] says:
NO!
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
AND PULL DOWN YOUR PANTS
[Alicia] says:
NOT GABE!
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
AND TAKE IT LIKE A MAN
[Alicia] says:
ESPECIALLY GABE. )':
IT ONLY STARTED WITH A HUG..
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
...
[Alicia] says:
I FEEL SO ASHAMED.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
FINE.
I WON'T SHOOT HIM
BUT YOU HAVE TO STAY MARRIED TO ME
[Alicia] says:
OF COURSE!
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
AND IF WE GET A DIVORCE I STILL GET GABE, TAYLOR, KELLEN, ROBERT AND KARL.
[Alicia] says:
I'll never divorce youu.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
OH AND GOWRI SAYS
THAT YOU HAVE TO GO BUY PIZZA
[Alicia] says:
WHY CAN'T YOU DO IT.
EVERYTIME.
IT'S ME.
WELL I NEED A BREAK.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
BECAUSE
I'M LIKE
[Alicia] says:
I MEAN, I'M EATING FOR TWO.
I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO GET THE FOOD TOO.
DAMN IT.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
1300 MILES AWAY
OH MY GOD
I SHOULD FLASH GABE AT THE CONCERT
HAHAHA
[Alicia] says:
OMG, YES.
DO IT.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
BE LIKE "GABE MY BOOBIES LOVE YOU"
[Alicia] says:
XD,
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
ROFL
KARL
WOULD FREAK
HE'D BLUSH AND NEVER TALK TO ME AGAIN
BUT HE'D TELL MOM
AND DAD
[Alicia] says:
BRIBE HIM TO SHUT HIS TRAP.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
AND
[Alicia] says:
OR ELSE.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
SOME STRANGE GUY
WOULD PROBABLY GRAB MY BOOBIES
[Alicia] says:
YOU MEAN SRG.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
AND THEY BELONG TO YOU
YES SRG
[Alicia] says:
TO ME?
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
TO YOU AND GABE*
[Alicia] says:
YOU MEAN YOU TRULY-
OH.
WELL.
YES.
OF COURSE.
I MEAN, IT'S ONLY FAIR.
GABE.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
GABE <3
[Alicia] says:
Rofl. If he knew about this conversation.
~To think, to fall, to not care at all~ says:
*GASP*
We should like
message him on myspace
and be like
"hey this is the girl that hugged you"
"Can you add us? we promise you'll laugh your ass off and say fuck alot"
Mmm...Hi boobies.
Amy:
At least it wasn't my bra.
However in a strange way that'd be cool
Be all like "DUDE THAT'S GABE AND MY BRA!"
Me: "My bra is fucking famous!"
Some random guy: "I don't think that's your bra in the picture."
Me: "It is!"
SRG: "You'll have to prove it."
Me: "Ugh" *lifts up shirt* "Happy?"
Gabe: "AMY'S BRA! YAY!" *grabs boobies*
Me: "Um, Hi Gabe."
Gabe: "Mmm....Hi boobies."
Me: "My boobs aren't the one's talking."
Gabe: *Gasp* "THE BRA TALKS!"
Me: "Um, Gabe."
Gabe: "Yes, bra?"
Me: "Can you stop touching me now?"
Gabe: "Are....Are you breaking up with me?"
Me: "WHOA we're dating?"
Gabe: *Cries* "You didn't even know I was your boyfriend!!!!!"
SRG: Oh this is so going on youtube.
Me: FUCK YOU STRANGE DUDE!
Gabe: *gasp* Bad boobies, you aren't suppose to cuss.
Me: It's not my boobs talking! and besides you say fuck more than I do after all your Gabe Fucking Saporta.
Edit:
[Alicia] says:
CS = COBRA STARSHIP.
COBRA STARSHIPPPP.
COOOBRRAA STARRSHIPPP.
Amy says:
Roflmao.
[Alicia] says:
ROF.
BRA!
CO-BRA!
OMG.
Amy says:
I tricked you
XD
[Alicia] says:
THAT'S WHY HE HAD A BRA!
HAHA, SILLY GABE.
KISS MY FURRY SASS.
[Alicia] says:
Suddenly, Gabe Saporta pops out of no where and starts shaking his pretty much nonexistent behind.
Amy says:
Jacob gawked in utter astonishment. "Was that.......Pete Wentz?" "Whoa whoa hold up? You're calling my fucking sexy ass Pete Wentz psh....you suck." "NO YOU SUCK" "NO YOU" "NO YOU!" "Kiss my furry ass, Gabe."
/random behaviour.
Suddenly, Gabe Saporta pops out of no where and starts shaking his pretty much nonexistent behind.
Amy says:
Jacob gawked in utter astonishment. "Was that.......Pete Wentz?" "Whoa whoa hold up? You're calling my fucking sexy ass Pete Wentz psh....you suck." "NO YOU SUCK" "NO YOU" "NO YOU!" "Kiss my furry ass, Gabe."
/random behaviour.
The Same Guy.
Add me and and Tany on msn.
First her, and a was all pervy on cam. And then we were like EWWW.
and then he added me on yahoo, because I didn't know it was the same guy.
We both got him from the TS chat and it was gross.
i was like "Psh. You're a douche."
But it was funny too,
because we both got tricked.
The loser said he wasn't a perv.
At least dollface isn't in denial about her perviness..
I mean jeeze.
First her, and a was all pervy on cam. And then we were like EWWW.
and then he added me on yahoo, because I didn't know it was the same guy.
We both got him from the TS chat and it was gross.
i was like "Psh. You're a douche."
But it was funny too,
because we both got tricked.
The loser said he wasn't a perv.
At least dollface isn't in denial about her perviness..
I mean jeeze.
Friday, October 24, 2008
I fucking met Gabe Saporta.
He was standing in the fucking lobby,
and I fucking asked him for a hug.
He was crazy tall, and skinny.
I'd say what he smelled like, but I wasn't breathing.
It was too unreal.
He's like..crazy up close.
I was freaking out.
Got a shirt.
Tany got a shirt.
Met Pat Brown, he sold us a sing it loud CD and signed it and made a funny joke.
Jenn hugged a guy from FTSK.
more later, so tired.
legs kill.
Tany got sat on.
Um...ttyl. <3
He was standing in the fucking lobby,
and I fucking asked him for a hug.
He was crazy tall, and skinny.
I'd say what he smelled like, but I wasn't breathing.
It was too unreal.
He's like..crazy up close.
I was freaking out.
Got a shirt.
Tany got a shirt.
Met Pat Brown, he sold us a sing it loud CD and signed it and made a funny joke.
Jenn hugged a guy from FTSK.
more later, so tired.
legs kill.
Tany got sat on.
Um...ttyl. <3
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Lol. I fell asleep at 12;50am.
And then woke up at like 8.
I'm just like "Ugh, wtf."
Layed around in bed 'till 10.
I'm up now, chilling out.
Dancing around.
Waiting for Jane to get here.
So glad she answered the phone, haha.
I would not have been a happy camper if I had had to walk there and back.
Sooo..yeah. Just chilling, then I'll make some breakfassstt....
There's a pimple on mah chin.
It hurtss. I keep trying to kill it, because
everytime I'm in the bathroom I soak it in rubbing alcohol, hoping
it'll go away. So far, no luck. But hey, it's not like anyone will be looking at my face during the show. Not to mention it isn't like huge and crusty.
Lol. Not that'd I'd care if it were huge and crusty...
Okay. Maybe I would just a little.
So excited!
I MEAN, IT'S FUCKING TODAY!
Seriouslyy! This is going to be insane.
It'd only be better if Dollface was here.
But whatever. If she does her externship here,
we'll do lots of shows. It'll be awesome.
Anyway. Came on here to write a list.
so here.
---
Bands I've Seen Live.
-In order-
Bif Naked (2002. FREE, only went because Jenn. XD)
Avril Lavigne (2004. FREE & BEFORE SHE SOLD OUT.)
Exit This Side (2006. FREE.)
Cobra Starship (2007)
Paul Wall (2007)
The Academy Is... (2007)
+44 (2007)
Fall Out Boy (2007)
George Nozuka (2008. FREE.)
Cobra Starship (2008)
Forever The Sickest Kids (2008)
Hit The Lights (2008)
Sing It Loud (2008)
----
The end of the list is more people I will be seeing, but whatever.
There isn't anything that could go wrong.
THIS WILL WORK OUT, DAMN IT. (:
I was writing 'TODAY!TODAY!TODAY!TODAY!TODAY!'
in my MSN messege thing, but it didn't look right so I just put one.
Not that you can see it, it's saying the music I'm listening to.
Omg, you know what sucks?
Tomorrow we have to go into our school at like 10.
And so we have to get up at like fucking 8/9.
And that is shit.
Lol, I'm already so hyper.
This is going to be awesome.
Nooo idea what to wear, but whatever.
I can deal.
I'm going to go eat some breakyfast now.
Peace out, girl scout. (;
And then woke up at like 8.
I'm just like "Ugh, wtf."
Layed around in bed 'till 10.
I'm up now, chilling out.
Dancing around.
Waiting for Jane to get here.
So glad she answered the phone, haha.
I would not have been a happy camper if I had had to walk there and back.
Sooo..yeah. Just chilling, then I'll make some breakfassstt....
There's a pimple on mah chin.
It hurtss. I keep trying to kill it, because
everytime I'm in the bathroom I soak it in rubbing alcohol, hoping
it'll go away. So far, no luck. But hey, it's not like anyone will be looking at my face during the show. Not to mention it isn't like huge and crusty.
Lol. Not that'd I'd care if it were huge and crusty...
Okay. Maybe I would just a little.
So excited!
I MEAN, IT'S FUCKING TODAY!
Seriouslyy! This is going to be insane.
It'd only be better if Dollface was here.
But whatever. If she does her externship here,
we'll do lots of shows. It'll be awesome.
Anyway. Came on here to write a list.
so here.
---
Bands I've Seen Live.
-In order-
Bif Naked (2002. FREE, only went because Jenn. XD)
Avril Lavigne (2004. FREE & BEFORE SHE SOLD OUT.)
Exit This Side (2006. FREE.)
Cobra Starship (2007)
Paul Wall (2007)
The Academy Is... (2007)
+44 (2007)
Fall Out Boy (2007)
George Nozuka (2008. FREE.)
Cobra Starship (2008)
Forever The Sickest Kids (2008)
Hit The Lights (2008)
Sing It Loud (2008)
----
The end of the list is more people I will be seeing, but whatever.
There isn't anything that could go wrong.
THIS WILL WORK OUT, DAMN IT. (:
I was writing 'TODAY!TODAY!TODAY!TODAY!TODAY!'
in my MSN messege thing, but it didn't look right so I just put one.
Not that you can see it, it's saying the music I'm listening to.
Omg, you know what sucks?
Tomorrow we have to go into our school at like 10.
And so we have to get up at like fucking 8/9.
And that is shit.
Lol, I'm already so hyper.
This is going to be awesome.
Nooo idea what to wear, but whatever.
I can deal.
I'm going to go eat some breakyfast now.
Peace out, girl scout. (;
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Okay, so..just chilling until 11;30, then I'll go to bed.
Planned out my morning.
Goes like this:
10AM - wake up.
Eat breakfast (i.e., oatmeal, toas & chocolate milk. May change by availablity.)
Call Gowri.
Get dressed. (regular clothes.)
10;50/11am - call tany again if no answer first time.
If still no answer, walk there.
11;30 /12am - have tany and everything she needs back at my house.
Eat Lunch.
12;30 - plan outfits,
get everything we need to look cute ready.
1 - Shower/brush teeth/do hair/shave legs.
1;40 - get dressed.
2pm - chill out.
3;30 - check that everyone looks cute.
3;47 - walk to bus stop.
4 - bus comes.
Note: if we miss the bus, we're screwed. That's why we're going almost 20 minutes before hand.
Note: I hope I don't have to fucking walk to tany's because that would be shit.
I think I really do have slightly OCD tendicies.
That's weird, but..I dunno. Not too bad at the same time.
I could be more crazy, ya know?
Anyway.
Night. (:
Planned out my morning.
Goes like this:
10AM - wake up.
Eat breakfast (i.e., oatmeal, toas & chocolate milk. May change by availablity.)
Call Gowri.
Get dressed. (regular clothes.)
10;50/11am - call tany again if no answer first time.
If still no answer, walk there.
11;30 /12am - have tany and everything she needs back at my house.
Eat Lunch.
12;30 - plan outfits,
get everything we need to look cute ready.
1 - Shower/brush teeth/do hair/shave legs.
1;40 - get dressed.
2pm - chill out.
3;30 - check that everyone looks cute.
3;47 - walk to bus stop.
4 - bus comes.
Note: if we miss the bus, we're screwed. That's why we're going almost 20 minutes before hand.
Note: I hope I don't have to fucking walk to tany's because that would be shit.
I think I really do have slightly OCD tendicies.
That's weird, but..I dunno. Not too bad at the same time.
I could be more crazy, ya know?
Anyway.
Night. (:
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Purple Magic, Screenies AND how annoyingly thorough my english teacher is.
I'm going to learn guitar, and Lee is going to learn piano.
WE CAN BE A BAND.
Before when I was friends with Thea (ugh) and Ariel (ew),
we were going to have a band. Didn't work, obvie.
Mostly because those douches are lame.
Anyway.
Me and Tany made lots of names.
One of them she thought of was Purple Magic.
BERNICE, WE ARE NOT HAVING THAT SHIT, OKAY. (:
WE CAN BE A BAND.
Before when I was friends with Thea (ugh) and Ariel (ew),
we were going to have a band. Didn't work, obvie.
Mostly because those douches are lame.
Anyway.
Me and Tany made lots of names.
One of them she thought of was Purple Magic.
BERNICE, WE ARE NOT HAVING THAT SHIT, OKAY. (:
My english teacher treats me like I'm on super extra esl.
Fucking bitch should learn to be more fucking respectful.
THEEEE ENDD.
Monday, October 20, 2008
I seriously am like the only one that writes in my blog it seems.
And that sucks.
I missing having stuff to read.
Aaaaaannnyyywwwaaayyy.
Yesterday was awesome.
Clive's girlfriend Jennifer
was there with us.
First, they came to pick me up.
Then we went and ate at that Thai
place I like. I had green curry with coconut milk,
chicken, vegetables, small salad, rice.
AND a coconut milkshake, which is like..
amazingly delishous.
And seriosly Tan, when you aren't
puking your guts out,
we're going to make it. ((((:
Or try to, anyway.
After we all ate we went and walked around steveston,
which is always fun.
The town is so cute and fishermany.
Old and adorable, I just love it.
We got some ice cream, ate it then went in the bookstore.
Saw some nice marine biologist books, but that's about it.
Then we walked down to the dock and checked out what all the fisher people were selling.
We got shrimp for dinner and then headed to a pumpkin patch.
We picked out pumpkins, and then had to pay cash
and no one had cash, so we had to leave the pumpkins and then go to this little strip mall where there was an ATM, and get cash.
Then we went back and got them.
The pumpkin farmer was funny and had like a german accent.
He told his dog to 'sat', it was kinda funny.
After that we drove back into surrey and picked some stuff up they needed for their pets.
Then we went to carve our pumpkins. Clive and Jen used stencils from the kit, but I just did mine.
Jen did a ghost, and clive did an owl.
Mine was a dragon, lol.
After that, we went to a BAR.
ROFL.
THEY GOT ME DRUNK, GODDAMNIT.
Haha, no of course not.
Well, they didn't get me drunk.
But they did take me to a pub.
We sat on the bistro side, they had beer and I had a sprite.
Clive watched the Canucks lose against Chicago,
and me and Jen played keno, lol.
It was fun. We both picked good numbers, but the ones Clive
picked sucked. All in all, we won a dollar.
It costs four to play.
After that we went back to the house and started dinner.
We had to take the shell off the shrimps for like EVER.
But it was fun, and I got good at it.
We had them breaded and deepfry-ished.
We had cocktail sauce that tasted like ketchup.
And to drink, grape fruit juice.
Pretty awesome day.
Jennifer said soon we'll do this thing we were talking about,
where you get this cake pan that's special and bake a cake.
Then you spend like allll day icing it.
She said "It'll take forever and you'll hate me, but we'll be up on the sugar rush so it'll be fun!"
I wonder if tany is feeling better.
I hope so.
Last night she told me about how she puked all over herself like a second ago,
and I felt awful for her.
When I puke I ALWAYS AT LEAST make it into the bathroom.
Ugh, I hope I don't catch what she has, because I hate vomit.
Anyway, yeah.
And that sucks.
I missing having stuff to read.
Aaaaaannnyyywwwaaayyy.
Yesterday was awesome.
Clive's girlfriend Jennifer
was there with us.
First, they came to pick me up.
Then we went and ate at that Thai
place I like. I had green curry with coconut milk,
chicken, vegetables, small salad, rice.
AND a coconut milkshake, which is like..
amazingly delishous.
And seriosly Tan, when you aren't
puking your guts out,
we're going to make it. ((((:
Or try to, anyway.
After we all ate we went and walked around steveston,
which is always fun.
The town is so cute and fishermany.
Old and adorable, I just love it.
We got some ice cream, ate it then went in the bookstore.
Saw some nice marine biologist books, but that's about it.
Then we walked down to the dock and checked out what all the fisher people were selling.
We got shrimp for dinner and then headed to a pumpkin patch.
We picked out pumpkins, and then had to pay cash
and no one had cash, so we had to leave the pumpkins and then go to this little strip mall where there was an ATM, and get cash.
Then we went back and got them.
The pumpkin farmer was funny and had like a german accent.
He told his dog to 'sat', it was kinda funny.
After that we drove back into surrey and picked some stuff up they needed for their pets.
Then we went to carve our pumpkins. Clive and Jen used stencils from the kit, but I just did mine.
Jen did a ghost, and clive did an owl.
Mine was a dragon, lol.
After that, we went to a BAR.
ROFL.
THEY GOT ME DRUNK, GODDAMNIT.
Haha, no of course not.
Well, they didn't get me drunk.
But they did take me to a pub.
We sat on the bistro side, they had beer and I had a sprite.
Clive watched the Canucks lose against Chicago,
and me and Jen played keno, lol.
It was fun. We both picked good numbers, but the ones Clive
picked sucked. All in all, we won a dollar.
It costs four to play.
After that we went back to the house and started dinner.
We had to take the shell off the shrimps for like EVER.
But it was fun, and I got good at it.
We had them breaded and deepfry-ished.
We had cocktail sauce that tasted like ketchup.
And to drink, grape fruit juice.
Pretty awesome day.
Jennifer said soon we'll do this thing we were talking about,
where you get this cake pan that's special and bake a cake.
Then you spend like allll day icing it.
She said "It'll take forever and you'll hate me, but we'll be up on the sugar rush so it'll be fun!"
I wonder if tany is feeling better.
I hope so.
Last night she told me about how she puked all over herself like a second ago,
and I felt awful for her.
When I puke I ALWAYS AT LEAST make it into the bathroom.
Ugh, I hope I don't catch what she has, because I hate vomit.
Anyway, yeah.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
New/9.
'Never Again' -The Midway State.
'Womanizer' - Britney Spears.
'Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bet' - Fall Out Boy.
'No More Room To Breathe' - There For Tomorrow.
'Slow Me Down' - Emmy Rossum.
'Three Oh Nine' - Hit The Lights.
'The Old Prince Still Lives At Home' - Shad.
'What I'm Looking For' - Brendan Benson.
'The Way We Get By' - Spoon.
'Womanizer' - Britney Spears.
'Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bet' - Fall Out Boy.
'No More Room To Breathe' - There For Tomorrow.
'Slow Me Down' - Emmy Rossum.
'Three Oh Nine' - Hit The Lights.
'The Old Prince Still Lives At Home' - Shad.
'What I'm Looking For' - Brendan Benson.
'The Way We Get By' - Spoon.
Audition + Why I'm Not Here Right Now AND Other Mindless Junk!
First, an awesome screenshot of audition in ballroom mode.
Me and some random guy got like 8 synchro perfects.
Awesome.
Second. Downloaded 'Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bet' - Fall Out Boy.
I love itt. I just do.
"Head like a steal trap
Wish I didnt
I didn't
I didn't
I didn't
I didn't
I didn't
I don't
Just want to be a footnote in someone else's happiness..."
Me and some random guy got like 8 synchro perfects.
Awesome.
Second. Downloaded 'Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bet' - Fall Out Boy.
I love itt. I just do.
"Head like a steal trap
Wish I didnt
I didn't
I didn't
I didn't
I didn't
I didn't
I don't
Just want to be a footnote in someone else's happiness..."
Tried to make a video. Movie Maker wouldn't import the song, sorry.
Third. Check the new post secrets because I don't have time to do it now.
Fourth. I'm not here because my 'uncle' took me out to this place with the absolute BEST thai food. And they have the fucking best coconut milkshakes there, it's like insane. And then after that we're going into Richmond or some shit, I don't really know. But it'll be fun.
I'll go shower now, have a nice day. (:
Friday, October 17, 2008
Me:"Remember that time we were on the ferry and
Sam lost $5 and someone found it and
she was like "GIVE IT BACK!" ?"
Tany:"That was you."
---
Someguyonthenews: "I never ever did those things. Except that one time at the cottage but that was an accident!"
---
Judy:"John, I'm not financially ready for that yet!"
For the last one, you have to know Judy.
Shamay's mom is seriously weird,
like all the rest of her family.
Anyway. It's funny though
because I always do an immitation.
(:
Sam lost $5 and someone found it and
she was like "GIVE IT BACK!" ?"
Tany:"That was you."
---
Someguyonthenews: "I never ever did those things. Except that one time at the cottage but that was an accident!"
---
Judy:"John, I'm not financially ready for that yet!"
For the last one, you have to know Judy.
Shamay's mom is seriously weird,
like all the rest of her family.
Anyway. It's funny though
because I always do an immitation.
(:
Tany got her book.
'Through the Storm' by Lynne Spears.
It's about Britney, Jamie-Lynn and the other one, Brian.
I got a book too. 'Ther Fortunes of Indigo Skye' by Deb Caletti.
I just love this author, she's so...real.
The books are hilarious, and the people are so normal in the that they...well.
They aren't, haha.
And it's like she notices all those things that's it's like 'Is this just me, or....'
I like it. (:
I'm siiiiick.
My throat is like sore as hell.
Tonsils = swollen.
I can feel it.
Is awful.
I got less then 5 hours of sleep last night.
I couldn't fall asleep, and it was just shitty.
We lost Lee's Mom in the mall. Again.
Stupid Sara walked so slow and got lost,
or just was a bitch and left us.
I'm thinking she just left, because she knew how to get to the
store we were going to,
and we told her where we were going.
It's kind of okay, because we had bus fare and shit.
But it's also not okay,
because I mean...
She left us, and we were supposed to pick up something for dinner for my house.
But we couldn't.
And my mom was pissed.
Not pissed in that overly angery way, just generally dissatisfied.
Which is NOT cool at all. Like, okay sure we said we would and then didn't.
It wasn't our fault.
And like, there was so many times she
was going to make me food,
and she didn't.
And she didn't tell me until like late and
then there was nothing to cook because I was too
tired to do it.
And like, whatever.
Six days until the concert.
Sweeeeeeet.
Can't wait.
I got what I'm wearing.
This dress from ON,
it's blue and just...adorable.
Shorts with leggings and
my white converse.
MAYBE a thin longsleeve shirt,
like..the sort you layer,
yeah. One of those underneath maybe.
For warmth when I'm outside.
But IDRLK what will look good,
because BERNAISE left the bag with the dress and other
stuff at her house. =/
Anyway.
I gotta go get ready.
No shower, because it's raining and I'm sick.
Ugh, I'll look...
messssyyyyyyyyyyy.
):
'Through the Storm' by Lynne Spears.
It's about Britney, Jamie-Lynn and the other one, Brian.
I got a book too. 'Ther Fortunes of Indigo Skye' by Deb Caletti.
I just love this author, she's so...real.
The books are hilarious, and the people are so normal in the that they...well.
They aren't, haha.
And it's like she notices all those things that's it's like 'Is this just me, or....'
I like it. (:
I'm siiiiick.
My throat is like sore as hell.
Tonsils = swollen.
I can feel it.
Is awful.
I got less then 5 hours of sleep last night.
I couldn't fall asleep, and it was just shitty.
We lost Lee's Mom in the mall. Again.
Stupid Sara walked so slow and got lost,
or just was a bitch and left us.
I'm thinking she just left, because she knew how to get to the
store we were going to,
and we told her where we were going.
It's kind of okay, because we had bus fare and shit.
But it's also not okay,
because I mean...
She left us, and we were supposed to pick up something for dinner for my house.
But we couldn't.
And my mom was pissed.
Not pissed in that overly angery way, just generally dissatisfied.
Which is NOT cool at all. Like, okay sure we said we would and then didn't.
It wasn't our fault.
And like, there was so many times she
was going to make me food,
and she didn't.
And she didn't tell me until like late and
then there was nothing to cook because I was too
tired to do it.
And like, whatever.
Six days until the concert.
Sweeeeeeet.
Can't wait.
I got what I'm wearing.
This dress from ON,
it's blue and just...adorable.
Shorts with leggings and
my white converse.
MAYBE a thin longsleeve shirt,
like..the sort you layer,
yeah. One of those underneath maybe.
For warmth when I'm outside.
But IDRLK what will look good,
because BERNAISE left the bag with the dress and other
stuff at her house. =/
Anyway.
I gotta go get ready.
No shower, because it's raining and I'm sick.
Ugh, I'll look...
messssyyyyyyyyyyy.
):
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
So, I paid 1.49 for something no one ever was supposed to see.
Atleast the money goes to a good cause.
More importantly,
FAD comes out dec.16. Because they didn't want to ride the election wave?
Fucking lame.
Not to mention most of the 'cool special' shit they're adding
will probably only have to do with the USA.
Thanks, fob.
I'm really feeling the love.
Monday, October 13, 2008
New/7.
Lucky Today - Cloud Cult.
Hey Baby - Cuff The Duke.
Matresses Underwater - Colour Revolt.
Won't Be Long - Ferraby Lionheart.
Hearts of Iron - Handsome Furs. (I think I put this before, but IDC. Is so catchy. =/ )
The Garden That You Planted - Sea Wolf.
This Is How We Kiss - Throw Me the Statue.
Hey Baby - Cuff The Duke.
Matresses Underwater - Colour Revolt.
Won't Be Long - Ferraby Lionheart.
Hearts of Iron - Handsome Furs. (I think I put this before, but IDC. Is so catchy. =/ )
The Garden That You Planted - Sea Wolf.
This Is How We Kiss - Throw Me the Statue.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
It was like 12, and I was so hyper.
Walking around here pulling faces and being all
"I'm so cute, look at my face!"
and just being crazy.
And then I looked at th clock and was like
"Ooh, I should go to bed."
I cleaned up my room,
and then I did exercises.
I'm tired as hell right now,
my legs ache but I feel good.
I'll go to bed and sleep like a rock.
It'll be nice.
Tomorrow I want to roleplay.
I miss it.
Maybe also it'll fix whatever is going on between Amy and me.
I dunno, for some reason I just feel alot
like she's putting me on hold alot.
And maybe it's because I'm letting her,
because I haven't really said anything.
Because I've just kind...been sad about it
and let it go because I didn't want to drag her
down and make her guilty and upset or anything,
you know?
I dunno.
I'm sweating buckets,
I'll go clean up and then hit the hay.
Nighty. (:
Walking around here pulling faces and being all
"I'm so cute, look at my face!"
and just being crazy.
And then I looked at th clock and was like
"Ooh, I should go to bed."
I cleaned up my room,
and then I did exercises.
I'm tired as hell right now,
my legs ache but I feel good.
I'll go to bed and sleep like a rock.
It'll be nice.
Tomorrow I want to roleplay.
I miss it.
Maybe also it'll fix whatever is going on between Amy and me.
I dunno, for some reason I just feel alot
like she's putting me on hold alot.
And maybe it's because I'm letting her,
because I haven't really said anything.
Because I've just kind...been sad about it
and let it go because I didn't want to drag her
down and make her guilty and upset or anything,
you know?
I dunno.
I'm sweating buckets,
I'll go clean up and then hit the hay.
Nighty. (:
Saturday, October 11, 2008
I'm a voyeur, haha.
Not really.
Well, for fish and bears and other creatures I am.
Because I went around looking up live web cam streams of things like aquariums, etc.
After the beluga one on the van aqua site wouldn't go.
So here, check these out.
Woodland Park Zoo (bears)
Boston Aquarium.
Well, for fish and bears and other creatures I am.
Because I went around looking up live web cam streams of things like aquariums, etc.
After the beluga one on the van aqua site wouldn't go.
So here, check these out.
Woodland Park Zoo (bears)
Boston Aquarium.
11/HATES.
Stupidity
Incompetence
Littering
People with crappy music taste
Jello
Tomatoes
Losing things
Assumptions
Rounding in math
The way velvet feels
Emails.
---
11/LIKES.
Wit
Respect
Finding things
Spontaneousness
Taking Science Notes
Mirrors
Fires
Fruit
11;11
Word Games
Sleeping.
Friday, October 10, 2008
I don't care what you think - as long as it's about me. (;
So....so..I dunno.
I don't know how I'm feeling just now.
I don't know..if I was telling the truth when I said I didn't care to dollface.
I just...I strive to be away from that quiet girl.
That one that...sits and mulls over things.
The one that holds grudges and doesn't say things.
Holds them in, and just...stews.
I don't want to be her. I dont...I don'tlike to be...
I don't like to have unoccupied time.
I don't like to think about certain things, and so...
there's just this way that I deal.
I'm loud, and crazy and...I LIKE being like that.
It's who I am, and it's...it's not like I'm rude.
Because, I'm not. Not really.
I'm still courteous and respectful and...
sure, I bash people's opinions, but...c'mon.
We talked about music, waffles, and...nonsense.
It's not like I said "Oh, you believe in -inster important moral view here-? Well that's totally -insert long stretch of insults and shut downs here-"
I just..don't get it.
I feel like I was judged. And I feel like... that isn't fair.
Because I didn't judge anyone, and I kept my mind open. I didn't...say things that were hurtful, or things that implied hurtful things. I was kidding around. And...there's things I'd like to say, but it'd be out of anger. And...it'd be that I was assuming things and judging and...I'm not going to do that. So...I'm just going to chill. And I'm also going to change the song off of Snow Patrol, because it's making me feel worse.
I don't know how I'm feeling just now.
I don't know..if I was telling the truth when I said I didn't care to dollface.
I just...I strive to be away from that quiet girl.
That one that...sits and mulls over things.
The one that holds grudges and doesn't say things.
Holds them in, and just...stews.
I don't want to be her. I dont...I don'tlike to be...
I don't like to have unoccupied time.
I don't like to think about certain things, and so...
there's just this way that I deal.
I'm loud, and crazy and...I LIKE being like that.
It's who I am, and it's...it's not like I'm rude.
Because, I'm not. Not really.
I'm still courteous and respectful and...
sure, I bash people's opinions, but...c'mon.
We talked about music, waffles, and...nonsense.
It's not like I said "Oh, you believe in -inster important moral view here-? Well that's totally -insert long stretch of insults and shut downs here-"
I just..don't get it.
I feel like I was judged. And I feel like... that isn't fair.
Because I didn't judge anyone, and I kept my mind open. I didn't...say things that were hurtful, or things that implied hurtful things. I was kidding around. And...there's things I'd like to say, but it'd be out of anger. And...it'd be that I was assuming things and judging and...I'm not going to do that. So...I'm just going to chill. And I'm also going to change the song off of Snow Patrol, because it's making me feel worse.
Don't you just hate when you look at the clock and realize it's later then you ever intended to stay up?
I do that, quite frequently, actually.
So...so it's almost 1Am, and I'm going to get some soft, acoustic tracks (as well as the pig for bernaise) and then hit the hay.
Hey, also, Last Christmas was kiiiiiller.
If Kate Brian doesn't hurry up and write the next one (Paradise Lost)
I'll...wait patiently, actually.
Because I have plenty to keep in happy while I wait.
The concert,
FAD,
Christmas.
Oh, haha.
I also walked home today from Tany's and like..
dude.
It was only 6, but it felt like 0.
I was wearing two tanktops a sweater and then a heavy longsleeve, and then another sweater and I was still cold.
I also have a scarf on.
Note to self: start wearing socks, lazy.
---
New/10.
'Slow Dance With A Stanger' - Danger Radio.
'Like You' - The Lovely Feathers.
'Coalmine' - Armchair Cynics.
'I Can Barely Breathe' - Manchester Orchestra.
'Love Me Dead' - Ludo.
'You And I Are A Gang Of Losers' - The Dears.
'Clinically Dead' - Chad VanGaalen.
'Anti-Social' - Cuff The Duke.
'Burn It Down' - Jonzetta.
'Anyone else but you' - Moldy Peaches / Micheal Cera & Ellen Page. (XD)
I do that, quite frequently, actually.
So...so it's almost 1Am, and I'm going to get some soft, acoustic tracks (as well as the pig for bernaise) and then hit the hay.
Hey, also, Last Christmas was kiiiiiller.
If Kate Brian doesn't hurry up and write the next one (Paradise Lost)
I'll...wait patiently, actually.
Because I have plenty to keep in happy while I wait.
The concert,
FAD,
Christmas.
Oh, haha.
I also walked home today from Tany's and like..
dude.
It was only 6, but it felt like 0.
I was wearing two tanktops a sweater and then a heavy longsleeve, and then another sweater and I was still cold.
I also have a scarf on.
Note to self: start wearing socks, lazy.
---
New/10.
'Slow Dance With A Stanger' - Danger Radio.
'Like You' - The Lovely Feathers.
'Coalmine' - Armchair Cynics.
'I Can Barely Breathe' - Manchester Orchestra.
'Love Me Dead' - Ludo.
'You And I Are A Gang Of Losers' - The Dears.
'Clinically Dead' - Chad VanGaalen.
'Anti-Social' - Cuff The Duke.
'Burn It Down' - Jonzetta.
'Anyone else but you' - Moldy Peaches / Micheal Cera & Ellen Page. (XD)
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
New/Fresh.
-Mom.
-Me.
-Grass in the yard.
-The view of the one side of the street.
-The neighbours little sidewalk thing.
-a teddybear in b&w.
-cracks in the sidewalk.
-Neighbours roofs.
-The Dog.
- One of the cats.
A statue my mom has.
-The dog on the couch.
-Weird shot I took of the new matress.
-Me in the living room.
-Tany eating.
-Tany eating, lol.
-Sitting on the counter.
- Me by 'lifes short...'etc.
-Me on the floor being lame w/ Oli.
-Tany pretending to take the sign off.
-Me in the kitchen near the sink. LOL@ dishes.^^^^^^^^^^
Those are all from today.
Here's some old ones....
Me & J.J. Being Messy looking, lol.
-Mome and Nick.
Jaylin being messy. 
-Me and Jaylin being messsyy.Tuesday, October 7, 2008
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