Lying here.
In the dark.
Thinking of fear.
Of darkness.
How the dark seems to deepen when I'm alone.
Like it knows I'm lonely.
Like its dying to swallow me up.
It's 2:30am. I think of who I've talked to today.
Yesterday.
Whatever.
Only a few stand out.
The advice I got from my mother about shaving.
Thats one.
Another is this 'fight' over a certain someones (not me.lol.) insecurities.
Theres another one.
The last was about my fear.
Of the dark.
How he'd hold me so I wouldn't be afraid, if I wanted...

Tonight, my lullaby is that 'fix you' song by Coldplay.
It makes my feelings seem even more so.
It makes me think of my life...if you tweak the words a bit.

'When you try your best but you don't succeed..'

Hell with it. I don't feel like explaining.

For now, I just want to be held.
I know what I want.
Besides that.

Unconditional, unquestioned, unquestionable,
Love.